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"I'm fine" is a dirty lie.

The truth is that I want to die.

 

"I'm tired" is not even done.

It really means "I'm tired of being no one"

 

"I'm better" is but a curse.

The truth is that I've never been worse

 

"I'm just cold" is what I say

so my sleeves can hide my scars away.

 

"I already ate" is said with a frown.

I starve to see the numbers on the scale go down.

 

"I'm okay" is probably the worst.

It really means I'm about to burst.

 

All these things are lies to me.

But you take this as the truth because what else would I be?

 

 

Well... this is another poem for my feels about depression, self harm, etc. I know that there are many poems and drawings on DA to support people with depression and bring awareness, and mine will not help, but i just feel so strongly about it since ive had a friend confess his depression to me. so heres another one :) to all those peopel struggling out there, you are not alone and i think your awesome <3
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Precipitous120 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2014
What happened in your life that is so bad?

You don't know what pain is... what Hating your self really is.

When you look back at your past and say to your self, "that is not me, I'm not that person anymore"
When you love someone but can't be with them, because you are afraid you might abuse them like the rest.
When you finally make something for your self, but are afraid that someone from your past will show up and tell everyone who you really are.

When you cry at night, because you know you haven't changed, that your still the bad guy, that your still the bully and the nerd...

When you look at your failed suicide attempts, just as another reason to try kill your self again.

When you spend time with your friends, realize your having fun, then stop your self because you don't deserve it.

When you go to that dark place, and your friends become suspicious and ask question... Everything is all right, you can trust us... only for when you tell them the truth, they realize they don't know you at all.

My life is a lie... because the past is too painful to retell, to explain why your so F@#$%kED up, to make excuses for being late... for being a bad friend... for being a bad boyfriend... it's because I'm not a person any more, just an explanation of a series of events... a Lie

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kumamichi Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you know when i hear this form someone the one thing i say is are you sure but i can't force someone to talk to let it out all the pain they feel inside i can't guaranty they'll trust me but i always tell them that I’m there but still i can't always go that deep with a person cause if they don't want to tell me I’m not going to make them but i tell you this reach out even if some one denies you over such a thing then they were never there for you you will find someone to listen even help you but even if it's just in the smallest way you have to reach out to someone cause if your covered in walls people may not be able to take all of them down or think you just don't wanna talk about it

lovely work by the way
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Bellykid5 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
That's exactly what I mean when I say that.
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emmabeirsack Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2013
Beautiful
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TheDarknessKitten Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wonderful.
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DkarnDezolus Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I've said everyone of these at one time or another, this helps more than you know. It's beautiful. :)
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sleepy-kisses Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is such a true poem. I'm sure so many people will relate this this ^^ Great job
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Iceworlf Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013
this is amazing and also so true than you
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iluvhoneysempai Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
WOW THATS ALL WRITE TO ME THERE ALL LIES
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iluvhoneysempai Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I LUV THIS ONE IT BEAUTIFUL
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Demon-Twin Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
very well written! i can relate to this alot....
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SilverRattler Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Why are there so many spaces after the last line?

I relate to every line except the one about "Scars". I would never mutilate any part of myself.
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DeanSexton Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very well written and I love that its power comes from its subtlety. Short and sweet and strong throughout thank you for sharing this! ^_^
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TheBattyCrow Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Aside from the blank space at the end, this was very well written - it flows with neat rhythm and truth.
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Kroketbroodje Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
But you take this as the truth because what else would I be?
^ Because you would be a sick atention seeker.
I learn little by little that the world is not such a nice place if you're (a little) different from how society thinks you should be.

I like that last sentence so much! It keeps you thinking..
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bjman664 Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Student Writer
^ it's true. if you ar even slightly different from everyone else than people shun you and act as if you aren't there. but the thing is: everyone is different. no two people are exactly alike. not even twins. so really people are just to self-centered to notice that what they do to people HURTS the others. there to busy in their cliques and their groups and never include people that grew up abused, or without parents, or just lonely people. no their too busy with what the GROUP wants and not what the individual wants.
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Kroketbroodje Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013
I can't do anything but agree with you. I think all we can do is just trying not to be like them..
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bjman664 Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Student Writer
the way i see it those people that shun those that are different, are just idiots. and if you look at it from a logic POV, than the people they are trying to ignore are just getting lots of attention. you see when you ignore somebody and don't notice them, you MUST notice those people, in order to not notice them... confused??? good
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Kroketbroodje Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013
Actually, I totally get your point. ^^
People who are the point of other's blame are usually people who've got something the bully admires.. But it isn't cool to admit something like that so the ovious will happen..

Too bad it works this way..
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bjman664 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Student Writer
yeah... human society is cruel and heartless... oh well gotta do the best with what you've got
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GoldenSunlight Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful poem. <3
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Sasurealian Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
stellar O.O Like wow....impacting!
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XxRockFiendxX Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013
<3
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immortalSi Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Student Writer
This is beautiful. It makes me so sad that for some people, the only happiness they get comes in a bottle labeled "Zolaft."
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RedneckNerd17 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
I thought of Pinkamnea Diane Pie when I read this. It just fits her.
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grungy789 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
very nice poem. well written. :)
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Vergilya Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Professional Writer
Love this. Beautiful and poignant. Thanks for sharing.
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...wow...
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Jasmin98 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
Wow its beautiful :heart:
And it describes me really how I feel inside
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aque-mizuhara Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I find this poem pretty, and very emotional, especially today for me. Thank you for writing it.
And don't mind all the hating people who babble about "special snowflakes" and such. There might be people who do things for show, but there are also people who really need help. Thanks for your expression of compassion!
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xSatanGirl Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
If they need help, why don't they get help? It's common sense. I'm not hating I'm just...''keeping it real''. People do gain things out of being depressed, such as attention, compassion, and security. I know that when I say attention people will go "but i'm not an attention seeker?!" and no, I didn't say seeking false attention. I mean, human beings crave attention, but more so when things are wrong. If you're feeling depressed and unhappy your attention is fed and that makes us feel good. :heart:
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aque-mizuhara Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"People gain things out of being depressed, why don't they get help" is like saying "people gain things from having a broken leg, why don't they get help" when every time someone says they're depressed, they get a response similar to "why don't you just get your things together?!" - "why don't yuo just heal that leg?!". Well darn maybe because I can't afford it/something keeps breaking the leg/I just have fragile legs. Have you ever seen tomography of a depressed person's brain, compared to a psychically healthy one? It's a totally different thing. About 3/4 less active. People with mental problems simply don't work healthly, not because they don't want to, but because they can't.
Attention gained because of being sick can lighten the mood for a moment or two, but doesn't heal. Getting over a depression is a hard proccess, mostly because nobody treats it seriously, and because what do we even know about how the mind works, let alone how to help it. If treating a broken leg required you to crawl 3km to a doctor, with everybody around telling you to quit whining about pain, you'd appreciate every person that understands your trouble, wouldn't you?
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xSatanGirl Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Okay, there's a difference between clinical/manic depression and ''depression''. If you can't help being depressed like you're bi-polar or some shit then damn. But, if you are ''sad'' because you got raped or your father died and most of the time it's because you don't have a girlfriend then you're probably just seeking attention which is a normal human thing. “Brain scans” showing “abnormalities”, when the diagnoses are often subjective and the patients being scanned have already been drugged. In this case, people who are happy could also scan different than ‘average’ people. Do they have a disorder? I would say that if you want to be 'happy' being happy, then you need to be happy more often. The more often you are happy, the more normal it will become. Pretty soon you will be happy like 90% of the time, and then you will start to enjoy it. It will take time, it wont be an instant thing, but it will happen. Just have patience.
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aque-mizuhara Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Okay, sorry, I stopped at "if you're sad because you got raped" and simply can't continue this discussion with you. It's ridiculous. I don't wish you ill, but I hope you will once experience how "sad" exactly some things can be, and that yes indeed being sad is an disorder just like being bipolar, that's what I'm trying to say.
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xSatanGirl Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Hm, well I didn't mean ''raped'', as you can see below there, I agree that you can become depressed from being raped. My English isn't all that there, so I apologize. Oh I have experienced something ''sad'' but being sad about a problem ISN'T going to get the problem fixed, it's not going to help ANYTHING AT ALL. So, instead of feeling sorry for yourself how about you TRY to fix the problem, get help, TRY to be happy, talk to friends and family. Also, teens need to stop trying to be emo/depressed because being depressed is not a GOOD thing. At the end of the day, that's what I mean and want you guys to understand that..
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N1ghTw4lk3r666 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Student Artist
HORSESHIT BIACH!!!
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BaconMagic Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
Yep, like there isn't enough wangsty teen bull floating around already.
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UsagiToxic Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No rhythm = no poem. Dixi.

And it is barely there, only the first verse is so-so.

Conclusion: crudely written "poems" with trivial words still sell themselves, and popular theme helps gaining easy popularity.

I just hope you are at least trying to write better.

Oh, and reminding about daily shit doesn't help. At all. Maybe this "poem" even will be the final straw for somebody.
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aylee95 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013
1) Trigger warning please :)
2) I really really like this piece :D
3) there is this really big blank space at the end.. was that intentional?
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Mimibert Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ive been told about the trigger warning.. but idk what it is or how to get it... and help with that? and no it was not LOL makes me laugh. i have no idea how that happened :/ magic
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aylee95 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013
when you post something there should be that "warning: yes no" thing right under the thumbnail of your piece, you just click the appropriate ones. :D
XD LOL well, it looks fine so I guess you can just leave it. The works of internet trolling magic... xD
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Mimibert Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Weell if its fine ill leave it but i will in include it in any new pieces like this :) thank u so much!
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Chibirin4 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013   General Artist
Thank you for thinking I'm awesome :3
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nanideer Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I've seen similar things said but this has a certain something I can connect with. Thanks for writing this (:
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Antmarch123 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful *Sniff* Beautiful <3
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KZeolite Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Just beautiful words :)
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xSatanGirl Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
"I want to die" is a dirty lie.

The truth is that I'm fine.



"I'm tired of being no one" is not even done.

It really means "I'm tired"



"I've never been worse" is but a curse.

The truth is that I'm better.



"I'm emo" is what I say

so I can act cool today.



"I already ate" is said with a frown.

I starve to see the numbers on the scale go down (Maybe I should get help because I'm a fucking retarded skinny ass bitch).



All these things are lies to me.

But seriously, who am I trying to be? #Fixed
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Mimibert Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well i get what ur trying to get at. That there are many teeny probs things and thatit may be anoyying seeing it day in and day out. I hope my poem didnt strike as an attention seeker thing or even rude in a way, and i agrre not all people who r depressed are legit, some do fake, but the person this is for is legit hurtingand ive seen it and i just wanted to help. Im sorry it struk u like this, but i do also beleive u coukd have stated ur opinions a tad differently. No hate because i get where ur coming from but... Things like ^^^^ i see as something DA does not need.
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xSatanGirl Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
I do not think your poem was about attention seeking at all, I just want to weed out the people who are TRULY having these problems and the teens who thinks being emo/depressed is cool, because it isn't.
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