literature

A Perfect Pain

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You're my pain 
But it's not what you would expect 

You are perfect 
The mere comparison of the two of us makes me question my existence 

And
Your composure is so well put together 
Every piece fits together like magic 

And 
The way you walk is something special 
Your feet hit the floor with a grace that eludes my comprehension 

And 
your stride is held up by a confidence that's so..
So...
Refreshing 
It's as if the way you hold yourself can hold me up too when I feel as if i can't get to my feet

And 
You are so developed 
Not in the sense of body 
But the way your soul has matured 
Beauty, in all sense of the word is presence in your thoughts,
In your heart;
Sewn into the very fibre of who you are
Woven with the most beautifully coloured threads and laces 

And 
I can see the world in your eyes 
As if there was nothing to fear 
You're as secure as a safe 
Your arms could wrap themselves around me
And every worry would melt away in the heat of your embrace 

I love you 
Maybe not a romance kind of love 
But a love that is present because my respect for you bloomed from a stale, serious word 
Into a word that illuminates the heart
And wakes up the mind

You are all these things 
And
More. 
And yet I stand here like an unfinished story 
Like my whole life is under construction from head to toe 
And I guess the pain you cause me is because of how I know I will never see your perfection in myself 
When I get up 
And look In the mirror 
I will never see those pieces interlock 
I will never see that grace that bewilders me
I will never see confidence with muscle
I will never see such a vibrant personality 
I will never see the absence of fear in my eyes
I will never see my construction end 

It's not your fault 
But it hurts 

It's a happy kind of pain tho 
© 2014 - 2024 Stanglass
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Delaney-Fisher's avatar
Aww.. Very deep and relatable, I think the poem explains itself and it's feeling perfectly